rantings

2011-04-03T22:45:00.000-07:00

Sigh, so sad! Gonna start work soon. Thinking about it is enough to make me feel sian n stressed. Smu interview in 2 days' time. How i wish i can nua at hme till uni starts. Lol. But! I want money! So tada, work.

2011-03-09T23:39:00.000-08:00

Hahaha, I think coming to my blog is sooooo sian. Cos' of the lack of updates. My life is pretty sian now but I think I kinda like it this way too. Free from stress. Hmmm.. So A level results is back. Aiya, I cant make up my mind. Biz or sci? I think sci is interesting but i dont like to studyyyyyyy and memorise. Whereas for biz, not many things to mug but then alot of proj and presentation, can i cope or not? I am not very vocal leh. Howwwwwww????

2011-02-17T00:40:00.000-08:00

I just want to say, I need friends to be around, not only in time of crisis.

2010-12-27T01:49:00.000-08:00

At first glance, you may find yourself fascinated with a Piscesian. People with Pisces horoscope are usually gentle and have a softness about them, essentially living in a world of dreams and romance. Along with their sensitive and mysterious qualities, their psychic intuition usually leads them through life.

Piscesians have a tendency to fall in love easily and can have several love affairs until finding the right match. To stay in a continuous relationship, a person born under Pisces horoscope need to have their emotional needs met, along with a feeling of security. Adaptable to almost any situation and all sorts of people, you may find a person with Pisces horoscope to be a real charmer.

To win points with a person born under Pisces horoscope, compliment them on their appearance, or flatter them regarding something they have done. Additionally, if you're the sentimental type, you will be on your way into a fulfilling relationship. If you're thoughtful, kind, and affectionate, in return, you may find yourself richly awarded with devotion. However, if you constantly criticize or have a tendency to be unfaithful with your devotion, you may want to keep looking. Piscesians will find this behavior intolerable and definitely unacceptable. A Piscesian will do almost anything for someone they care about. Once they commit to a person, they will give all their time, effort, and energy to them.

Their interests fall in the arts and in stimulating conversation. These often artistically talented individuals love topics on mysticism, spiritualism and the supernatural. Piscesians horoscope love to expound and explain their point of view, however, if you don't agree, be gentle. This sensitive zodiac sign, doesn't appreciate rejection or someone that takes a completely negative approach to life. They are also great listeners and their sympathy is mostly genuine.

Once they have found a stable, passionate, and tender partner, they will relinquish their uttermost passion and devotion to them exclusively.

People with Pisces horoscope won't even mind if the person makes most of the decisions that are to be made. As an attentive, compassionate and romantic lover, hey will surely fulfill your spiritual and physical needs. Once content in emotional security, this vulnerable sign of the zodiac, will look no further.

Pisces

Perfect Partners:

Cancer, Scorpio

Nearly Perfect Partners:

Taurus, Capricorn

Not Your Destiny:

Gemini, Sagittarius

If you're interested in a person born under the Taurus horoscope, don't sit around waiting for them to approach you. A Taurus is a patient person, which is something you will have to possess in any relationship with them. Most likely, you will have to be the initiator.

Once you're on a date with a Taurus, let them know that you enjoy their company. If you pick out the restaurant, make certain that the food and atmosphere are in good taste. And, if you're planning a dinner at home, try and plan ahead making sure everything is perfect; plenty of good food, good wine, flowers, candles on the table, and soft background music.

If you show a Taurus that nothing is too good for them, you're well on you're way to building a lasting relationship.

With a strong will and a great sense of humor, a Taurus can have a calming effect on people. However, sudden changes in routine can cause friction with them.

If you're looking for someone dependable, you've found them. If your looking for someone to constantly assure you of their love and devotion, you might want to keep looking. A person under the Taurus Sign is a very sensual person and can awaken sleeping passion in someone they care about.

Taurus

Perfect Partners:

Virgo, Capricorn

Nearly Perfect Partners:

Cancer, Pisces

Not Your Destiny:

Leo, Aquarius

So true.. Ain't we supposed to be the nearly perfect partners then?

2010-12-15T02:19:00.000-08:00

Life is NEVER fair. So many injustices but what can I do but to swallow them all? Certain issues that are happening just made me feel that I should stop trying because no matter how hard I tried, I will still be lousier than some others just because of certain privilages they have. What the hell?! I may be more competent or whatsoever but that doesnt bring me to a higher level. This is life..

2010-12-12T01:57:00.000-08:00

Im glad this has finally ended because you suck big time, you really do. Dont bother asking me about this because i wont reply you regarding this post. Im not talking about bob anyway.

Counting down, 10 days (:

2010-12-08T08:00:00.001-08:00

I think I am suffering from some form of mental disorder with the symptoms:
1) Inferiority complex
2) Paranoid
3) Pessismism

To others, I MAY be considered blessed? I don't know.. But deep inside, I dont feel that why. Maybe I have too high expectations of myself. Even with certain achievements, I still feel equally lousy about myself and that set me thinking, would it be better to be abit uglier/more dumb/have less talent but feel good about myself or be smarter/more good looking/more talented but still feel lousy about myself? Somehow.. Compliments, achievements and so on are like sweets, LOW GI. Give u a boost in ur confidence lvl for maybe 1 day? But it plunged back down after that. And wait, somehow it will get worse, because the achievements made you compare with someone else even better than you are, then you will feel inferior again. One may say be satisfied with what you have, but hello? Is there anyone out there who can say they are satisfied with what they have currently? Sure or not? you must be kidding me. Sighhhhhhhhhhhh..... This feeling sucks..

2010-10-03T07:57:00.000-07:00

I dont understand why some people expect others to do something for them without feeling guilty.. Funny, we dont have to do it ok?! Cant they show some appreciation by saying 'thank you' / 'sorry for the trouble'?

2010-08-24T08:15:00.000-07:00

Seriously, you people are the most CONSIDERATE, UNDERSTANDING AND SUPPORTIVE people i have met. Fml.

2010-08-01T03:48:00.000-07:00

Anxiety attack =(

2010-07-24T01:37:00.000-07:00

Ignorant.

2010-07-17T05:29:00.000-07:00

'Best friends are people you can get angry with only for a short period of time because you have something more important to share with them.'
Seen this statement on fb and its posted by an ex-schmate of mine. Its quite meaningful in my point of view though.

2010-07-16T20:56:00.000-07:00

用起伏的背影，
挡住哭泣的心，
有些故事不必说给每个人听。
许多眼睛看得太浅太近。

2010-07-16T20:46:00.000-07:00

I wish Im smarter.
I wish Im more hardworking.
I wish I have better tolerence for nonsensical stuffs.
I wish Im dont have flaws, or at least less flaws.
I wish to have people who understand me around me.
I wish I can be happier.......

Why do you always think you are right?

2010-06-14T05:56:00.000-07:00

It has been 3 mths since i last updated my blog! There is nth much for me to update anw.. I am leading a boring life now with school dominating most part of it.. So sick of school. I cant concentrate! Oh no! 2 weeks left before school restart and I have barely started revision. Kill me please.. I hope there is sth wrong with my internet connection so I will be unable to surf the net, which means I can concentrate on mugging! Oh gosh, I dont wanna fail any subject, please let me pass all subj! Thats all! A short update to tell you guys that I am still alive and kicking! =)

Note to self: Leave the past, is that too much to ask?

2010-03-13T20:39:00.000-08:00

The best present I wish for is pleasant surprise (:

2010-03-06T09:14:00.000-08:00

I dont understand why guys like to comment that this girls so pretty, so hot so whatever to another girl. Dont he know the girl wont feel good? Hmmm.. maybe i should adopt their habit and start commenting this guy very hot etc hor?

2010-02-28T01:49:00.000-08:00

Because of inflexible system and people who tried to pon school,we the guai students have to take mc to prove that we are really sick. And if its not convenient to take mc? what do we do? drag our sick body to school and try to stay far away from people in case you infect them.. Life sucks as a sick student..

Argh, fever AGAIN.. but i still have to do hw cos i gt no mc.. gosh, watch me die, especially during afternoon pe. -.-

2010-02-28T00:18:00.000-08:00

It is amazing how things once faced by you, come back to you again after a long time.. I remember 1 year plus back, and then a few months back, and now a few minutes ago, people actually ask me to stop complaining about stuff. I just wanna inform you all that whining is my way of making something thats affecting me less severe. Not many, but there are still people who use such unorthodox method to face the problem. Of course, the effectiveness of this method is questionable, but whatever, it works for me. Blah, but i believe its causing others to feel bu shuang, so now i should just SHUT UP and KEEP EVERYTHING TO MYSELF. Yes, thats the best, right?
(Note: pardon me if i start complaining again, cant help it cos' its a habit already)

I <3 my peaceful life.

2010-02-27T19:33:00.000-08:00

My world starts to spin once i wake up. Didnt go for monthly shoot today cos i woke up wif a headache. Confirm cant shoot well one.. Bt i wasted 10 bucks! Boo! Eee, i dun want to go sch tmr, bt i dun wan to c doc again, it wil be my 3rd time man. Gosh, n e worst thing is nobody can bring me to e doc! Think i will just drag my sick body to school and whine. =( training till 9.30 on mon. Holy! =S p.s if i have wishes that will come true, 1 of them will be i hope there will not be conflicts ard, be it it concerns me or nt. I want every1 to be happy and nt affected by conflicts. The world will be a much better place right? (: to those who are feeling unhappy abt anything, i hope u guys find sth to rejoice abt. Ah, ps, too sick alr, start to write weird stuff. =X

时间能冲淡一切，但你让人厌倦的行为似乎比较有效。为你付出的和我们的共同回忆，现在都化成灰。终于能彻彻底底地把你放下了，感到非常庆幸。 =) 已经不像以前那么需要你了，希望你不要回到我身边，捣乱我平淡无奇的生活。

2010-02-27T01:34:00.000-08:00

SICK SICK SICK!!! gosh, the med is not working at all.. still as sick as ever, even worse i guess.. I hate my immune system! so lousy! i dont know what to type already! cant think properly so pardon me if im not making sense..

2010-02-22T05:42:00.000-08:00

Someone made a statement and explains the reason for my singlehood. He said 'because you never open your heart'. I think it is rather true to some extent because i never dare to risk opening my heart to someone whom i dont know if i can depend upon. But then again, open already so what? It always lead to the same outcome, and that is me getting hurt.

2010-02-21T22:08:00.000-08:00

Mariah Carey - Without You
No I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way
The story goes
You always smile but in your eyes
Your sorrow shows
Yes it shows

No I can't forget tomorrow
When I think of all my sorrow
When I had you there
But then I let you go
And now it's only fair
That I should let you know
What you should know

I can't live if living is without you
I can't live I can't give anymore
I can't live if living is without you
I can't give I can't give anymore

Well I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way
The story goes
You always smile but in your eyes
Your sorrow shows
Yes it shows

I can't live if living is without you
I can't live I can't give anymore
I can't live if living is without you
I can't give I can't give anymore

Nostalgia~

2010-02-21T20:04:00.000-08:00

Whees~ everyone is in sch now and im at home! just woke up.. sorethroat is as bad but flu getting better.. finally i can breathe through my nose.. yay! Gonna chiong hw now! sigh! I HATE GP!!!!!! No, should be i hate GP HW! ROAR~!!!!!!! forever cant finish one cos tcher keep adding more.. wwth?!?! I know its for our own good for we CANT finish la! I seriously dont mind doing if i have the time cos it will benefit us.. oh wait, i mean some ONLY.. eg. doing research on some alien topics DOESNT benefit us can, dont even understand the topic we r doing on alr, let alone what others have done.. the only research i find it useful is probably the country research.. but SIAO, 18 areas to be covered! ZZZZZZZZZZ.......... okay, i shall go back and do my hw if not my gp tcher will probably kill me, bye ppl!

2010-02-20T03:41:00.000-08:00

ME IS SICK~ Argh! super xin ku man.. Ytd i woke up with a really bad sorethroat to the extent i cant even speak/drink water/move my mouth(YES, v weird, i know)without experiencing pain.. sigh.. so i was on 'SILENT MODE' ytd.. didnt even talk during lectures, miracle man..and i realised i can pay attention if i dont talk, but once my sorethroat is gone, it will be a different case already..=p LECTURES ARE BORING~~ Anw, i left early ytd, not because im sick, but because i have to go for chingay.. almost died while on the way home la... SUPER XIN KU, feeling so weak and i still have to walk so farrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr........... while on the train was equally bad even though i was seating down, was tearing cos' of my nose and fever.. I didnt cry la, the tears just flow automatically.. -.- oh btw, leqi, timo, me witnessed an accident when we were walking to the mrt station.. ok, actually not witness, i heard a 'thak'sound then i look back, saw a motorist lying on the road already..=S hope he will be fine! and the ambulance is really fast man! within minutesit was there already, like probably around 5 minutes only! wow wow~ so efficient..

This morning i thought i recovered when i JUST woke up.. however, my nose woke up a few minutes after i woke up too.. took temperature but wasnt running a fever so i thought i still can go for chingay parade.. And partly because dad went out, and there is no one to accompany to see the doctor, I gotta go for the parade if not my cip hrs will be totally gone if i dont have a mc.. so i went to prepare and bathe etc.. but when i came out of the bathroom, my fever came back and dad was home already by then.. whee~~~ went to see the doctor and he prescribed me 5 types of medicine excluding antibiotics, imagine if im not allergic to antibiotics, i will have six! whao~ I got viral infection according to the doctor, oh well.. (p.s. the waiting time to see the doc was long~ there is only 2 person before it was my turn but they took very long, dont know what they doing inside =X) Oh, i always think im the fastest when it comes to consultation.. hmmm, others take so longgggggggggggggg~ dont you all think so too? or is it because when it was my turn, i didnt realise how fast the time is passing? hahas.. anw, i was given 3 days mc(TSK, the doctor so niao1, i mean stingy! should have gone to the polyclinic la, they very generous in giving mc luh, humpfx)which means i only can miss school on mon, so sad.. D= and i passed my flu to dad, oops! keep passing la, sheena-->sermin-->me--->dad--->???

Think i wont go to school on mon, dont think i can finish my hw by then too considering the amount of hw i have and my malfunctioning brain and body due to my flu and fever and sorethroat.. sigh..

*SPECIAL THANKS TO LEQI FOR TAKING CARE OF ME DURING THE PARADE AND TIMOTHY FOR SENDING ME HOME FOR FEAR THAT I WILL FAINT/BE KIDNAPPED! =D

2010-02-18T05:22:00.000-08:00

This came to my mind when I was on my way home yesterday. If you have lost something, and now you have the chance to fight for it again, will you treasure the chance or just remain passive? If you were to ask me, i will say i will fight my way for it, no matter the outcome. Because i know i have tried my best and i have no regrets for they may still be some possiblity that i will get my desired outcome. if i dont try, i will get nothing at all. so, im wondering, whats on your mind now?

And shooting suddenly become my phobia~ =C

Im exhausted, i want to sleep............... GP is ___________! GRRRRRRRR....... I envy people who seems to have energy that wont deplete despite them having so few hours of sleep. Thats UNFAIR, i still feel tired even if i have 12 hrs of sleep luh. SLEEPY HEAD! D=

I gt more thoughts but i cant remember them alr so yea, thats all!

2010-02-07T06:41:00.000-08:00

Hello people! I have nth to update you all about except that limbs feel retarded. I cant control my right hand when carrying a pistol and i cant even stretch my thigh muscles manz. Wah, I think it is true that my endurance lvl increased cos' I strained my muscles. oh well~ Hope it will recover asap, or at least, recover.. =(

P.s My life is quite boring now

2010-01-31T06:11:00.000-08:00

Im back! My life has been so far so BORING.. Oh well,it revolves around homework and cca. =S Anw, I think my GP tcher is erm, too HIONG in giving homework man. Not that I dont wanna do but its really too much for us to handle.. Gosh, suffocated.. But I guess nobody will dare to voice out anyway, so I shall just persevere and hope it will do me good. Baa.. Oh yea, I look foward to weekends yet I dont want weekends to be here.. HAHA, what an irony.. Reason is because I get to rest and also, to emo. Dont ask me why I only emo on weekends, I dont know why too. Not that Im very free but perhaps there is no one for me to talk to during weekends? Ahh, nt important anw.. Okays, I gotta continue doing my gp tasks already..... =C bye!

2010-01-24T02:17:00.000-08:00

Monthly shoot today.. I failed to soar, again.. The score was a vast difference of 20points from my usual training standard. Very disappointed of course, and nationals is just about 2 months away. *keep my fingers crossed* Stop telling me that its not lousy, I know its not, but I dont want to be just an average shooter, I wanna be one of the top. Different people have different expectations right? And shooting is probably something I can do better in, can you imagine the great disappointment I get when I fail to do well? To make thing worse, there wasnt any form of encouragement after the shoot. Yes, I screwed it. Once again, my confidence level has dropped, wait, do I even have any confidence left in the first place? And i forgot to open the chamber after firing off the 'air' to ensure that there is no pellet! Gosh, got nag by eddie, sigh.. Was super duper scared when my pistol was 'confiscated' and I have to get it back from the person-in-charge. Wanted so much to have someone to accompany me to get it back. But when I tried to reach out for support, there wasnt any.. The feeling sucks, badly.
You wouldnt know how afraid I was.

Is it that you have changed or its just me who didnt realise? I miss the old you..

2010-01-17T01:22:00.000-08:00

'Take it from a guy, drop him. hes either a player or a complete nut job. hes too mixed up in the head to know exactly what he wants so he muddles about in everything until it gets serious then backs off.' Quoted from Endolayl(gotten this online somewhere)...

Get OUT of my LIFE...

2010-01-08T02:44:00.000-08:00

Sickening CCA! *curse* LAST WEEK OF HOLIDAY STILL GT CCA GOING ON.. DORTS,RIDICULOUS.. NO TIME FOR MYSELF, FAMILY, AND MY NEW BOYFRIEND AKA STUDIES LA.. Dearest bf, i know i hv neglected you for a yr and now, im coming back to you alr.. YUCK.. =X But but i will love you till the end of this year ok?

Perhaps, all i can do now is just to put a brave front in front of everyone, including myself. Color me blue I'm lost in you.

2009-12-14T00:29:00.000-08:00

Hey all! I think you all must be very curious why i sms u all ytd to wish u all gd afternoon right?! Im very lazy to explain over and over again so tada, here is the reason!

Cos i feel that we usually will sms each other because we gt sth to ask our frens.. So i think it will feel gd if someone just sms to wish u gd morning/afternoon/night. It makes me happy if sm1 do tat, i thot it may make u all happy too, idk?

2009-12-08T22:49:00.000-08:00

IM NOCTURNAL.. And serious k.. like i usually slp at ar 3am and wake up in the afternoon.. omg, and i only can fall aslp after lying in my bed for a few HOURS.. horrible la! Shall exercise one night so i will be very tired and can fall aslp earlier.. =S

2009-12-05T09:16:00.001-08:00

《暖星》
　　王心凌
　　城市里小星星
　　稀疏的亮晶晶
　　太多光吃掉它们的身影
　　就像我爱上你
　　隐没在灯海里
　　你眼中只看繁华的夜景
　　我的爱藏在你的背影里
　　想要笑著坚定的恒心
　　天黑的时候我远远陪著你
　　再小的闪烁也努力放光明
　　当有天我在夜空里面
　　偶尔被发现希望我眨眼
　　能感动你视线想把小星星
　　排成爱的突袭为你的天空点缀一些惊奇
　　即使像流星一闪而过寂寞也情愿
　　不求你看见只想为你发光永远

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=de7BiwqhN-o

VERY NICE! =D

2009-12-02T00:29:00.000-08:00

Hellooooooooooo........ Hv anyone spotted me STARING at them? OMG, Im guilty of this if staring at ppl is a crime.. Cos I always stare at ppl unknowingly.. HAHAHA..
My TARGET are ppl who are:
-drop-deap gorgeous
-with not-so-usual(well, i mean weird) dressing/looks/actions

Strangely,I dun stare at hot guys.. muahaha, probably i will if there are ping guan look alike ard.. =p Oh, im straight though.. I still like guys, just that i love to see pretty girls, cannot ar? X)

2009-11-29T21:08:00.000-08:00

Ahh damn, life is so boring...... IM HAVING CCA LATER, SOBS SOBS...

2009-11-29T08:24:00.001-08:00

SY has forgiven but not forgotten.................

2009-11-26T21:12:00.001-08:00

Oh yeah! Had a really nice day with deyi, szegee and kaiting ytd.. Haha, we went to science centre and jurong point, its my first time to jurong pt! LOL, sua ku.. =p And deyi caught 3 toys from those toy catching machine and gave to the 3 of us, one each.. =D He is really GOOD at catching those toys man and i gt the one i want, baby donald duck, super cute! =DDD okay, pictures time!

LOL

DY and the girls

dy and me, plus christmas tree behind..

the girls

our legs

PEACE

heh

retarded.. LOL

the guys

candid!

yay! LOVE!

bang bang!

Kt, me, dy, oops, flash light blocked his face.. =p

Muscular DY..

Muscular KT.. ahahah!

cant rmb what i was doing when this was taken..

Kt and me!

Kt, me, SG

Me and SG!

Another group pic!

yay, group pic! <3

thats all! thanks dy for the photos! bye ppl!

2009-11-25T06:21:00.000-08:00

Random fact: I don't like to talk to ppl with partners, esp the guy..
Reason: 1) I don't want misunderstandings
2) It makes me feel very REJECTED.. As in like mei ren yao.. Idk why too..

2009-11-24T00:22:00.000-08:00

Watched 鲁冰花 just now! Oh my, I think Im weird, watching all those older than me movies.. =p I love to watch movies(excluding lian2 xi4 ju4) at home cos' I can do anything I want, cry, eat, whatever! hahas.. =D the story is pretty simple, but still nice la.. hahas..

Tada! One of the song in the show.. nice nice! I like this version more although the one in the show is also very nice.. Oh, btw, the small little girl who sang this song is the actual singer for beijing olympic..love her voice!

2009-11-21T22:14:00.000-08:00

Argh, Im sick! damb, knew it.. sorethroat=sick.. Im running a fever now... so xin ku.... =C

2009-11-20T21:42:00.000-08:00

I used to love to take up leadership roles and would enjoy it.. but now, its totally the opposite.. ENVIRONMENT matters huh? ok, i didnt mention anything.. =p

2009-11-19T06:09:00.000-08:00

Im always feeling hungry from 9pm onwards.. its always the same time.. hmmm, and i hv bruises from dunno what.. -.-

2009-11-19T05:17:00.000-08:00

I am getting more and more annoyed by everything around me.. Oh shucks.. Sometimes i complain im feeling lonely, sometimes i just wished im alone.. okay, im weird.. I realised many things are hindering me from venturing into what i want.. but well, thats life?

I love art, not drawing. I like astract stuffs too cos it allows one to express freely? There is no right or wrong,and no1 can commend on whether its nice or not? Oh yea talking abt art, reminds me of creativity.. I wouldnt say Im creative, but i try to be different? Of cos the outcome of me trying to be different is not always positive, LOL, there are some weird weird things i hv come up with.. but heck, be it gd or bad, i still dont like ppl to steal my idea unless u desperately need to, then u shld take instead of steal and pretend its ur own piece of work.. I believe many people will feel the same as me and are equally angry at those 'thieves' rite? but i dont mind if its buying the same product as me since it is unavoidable and i dun hv any right to say that person COPY me since its not that case unless im the one who invented it... -.- i realised my topics are getting more and more random.. hoho! =p

2009-11-16T05:13:00.000-08:00

I <3 my name! Although its not very unique or what, I think it sounds nice! hmmm.. not bad ar, my parents made a great choice! =D

2009-11-16T05:01:00.000-08:00

Im back yo! Argh, I gt MI test tmr, dang, yes im one of the 71.. -.- i will forever rmb 0!=1 from now onwards.. anw, sth random.. I realised, after a few years of observation and thinking, ok, I know Im VERY SLOW, that using another person just to make someone else angry is totally STUPID.. cos firstly, you will nvr achieve it.. secondly, it only makes you feel more horrible and pathetic.. ok, end of lesson.. bb.. =p

2009-11-15T02:19:00.000-08:00

Sometimes, I wished that this world only have people I love on it and exclude all other sickening people.. I simply cant stand annoying people and their actions.. hmmmmm...........

2009-11-09T20:54:00.000-08:00

I think mac's curry sauce is nice.. ok, u guys must be wondering why i say this right? cos i rmb i dislike curry sauce when i try it for the v first time! i think its weird! haha.. my blog is dying.. i wanna revive it again but idk wat to post, so tada! a super random post.. p.s, im eating mc wings meal nw.. hehehe.. =D

2009-11-05T02:27:00.000-08:00

Learning a new skill----> cooking, can this be used for nyaa???? LOLS!!!!

Poor sy not only have to do housework now, she even hv to cook!!!!! ROAR!!!!!!! no time ar........... i dun mind learning if i hv the time becos its actually quite fun.. but the washing up is not fun at all.. especially if its super duper OILY.. >;(

New dish of the day is steam fish!! Easy and nice.. =D

2009-11-05T01:04:00.001-08:00

I realised sth recently, I feel tired easily when im stressed.. I believe its my mentality because i hv more than 8 hrs of slp daily... oh damn.. i struggle to wake up after every nap.. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhh...... perhaps sleeping is a way to escape..

2009-10-28T06:01:00.001-07:00

Why?

Because deep inside, I feel extreme loneliness...........

2009-10-24T07:38:00.001-07:00

雨过天晴 =)

2009-10-22T03:18:00.000-07:00

Do you even know what really happened? Im lost, felt extremely lonely..........
Its even more tiring to pretend... Can I just give up?????? Im falling...... Someone catch me please... I wished I have the strength to continue, but, where can i gt those strength from??? I hv tried means to pull myself up, but all i get was........................ To make things worse, some of those whom i tried to seek comfort in simply hmmmm... nvm....

Life has not been going smoothly for me recently.. FYI, Im sad nt solely because of results, its mostly other factors...

强忍泪水

2009-10-20T05:47:00.000-07:00

*SCREAMSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS* =(((((((((!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-10-19T03:20:00.000-07:00

SY is unhappy and felt that she shld nt HOPE for ____________ anymore~ It will still have the same outcome.. TIRED~~~ Fairytale doesnt exist...........

2009-10-13T07:53:00.000-07:00

Not because I am OKAY with everything, but i chose to TOLERATE.. Dont push your luck...... =)

2009-10-11T07:13:00.001-07:00

sy thinks that excessive use of 'lol' or inappropriate use of it makes one looks stupid..

2009-10-09T06:28:00.001-07:00

shiyun-edited(above)
VS
miyamoto masaru-edited

2009-10-08T07:12:00.001-07:00

HEY PEOPLE! I AM BACK!!!!!!!! promos over alr!!! yay!!! =D as for how well/bad i do, i duno so dun ask me.. hopefully can be promoted.. no, its a must!!! anw, the intensive studying period was HORRENDOUS for me i swear.. shed so much tears.. so stress!!! esp when time is running out+im tired+i dun understand stuff.. thk u timo for spending time to teach me.. also very thkful to my clique for giving me so much moral support.. heh, pai seh, sy is a big cry baby.. =X oh ya!!! im 'famous' now because i have 'fever' everyday and have to report to teachers for 2nd temp check.. LOLS.. i usually hv higher temp but during exam period=exceptionally high.. oh well~ i dun think im sick.. tats all for today, i dun even feel like blogging actually.. lols.. BB!

2009-09-27T06:01:00.000-07:00

seriously depressed.. cant even slp in peace.. omg, schwork will flood my mind once i close my eyes.. i realised there are so many things i nidda memorise and understand.. less than 1 wk to promos.. i haven even start on revision.. busy chionging all assignments and the super duper sickening pw.. i cant wait to graduate!!! argh..........

2009-09-25T05:28:00.000-07:00

Had another dance today.. some weird couple dance.. didnt really enjoy it as much as chacha.. oh well~ but its better than having those 'army training' under the scorching sun.. gees.. ahh, and i 'lost' my partner during one of the many many turns.. so embarassing.. >< okay, enough of the dance topic.. its 10 more days to promos!!!!!!!!!1 FREAK! im nt prepared..
I WANT TO PASS PROMOS!!

2009-09-19T05:53:00.001-07:00

PE on fri was FUN to the max! probably the most fun pe lesson! anw, fyi, we learn CHACHA.. nice! hope tues's pe will be as fun! gees.. learning another kind of dance.. i miss dancing! after pe went to bottle tree village to prawn! WAH SEH, VERY FUN(to me)! Caught my very first prawn within a min, im nt exaggerating k!but then~ after that no more luck.. ferny managed to catch another prawn.. so by right we shld hv 2 in total rite? But we have 6! guess why.......... because we didnt dare to take the prawn out from the hook, then a boy offer to help us, but when he tried to put it into the net, it jump out of the net.. so he return us 5 prawns although we say dun nid.. yay! ^^

Today went for PW meeting.. I think its quite productive, erm, i didnt digress much, a BIG improvement k! then wento shop for BAG n BOTTLE with ferny.. still cant find any one that i like.. oh well~ ahhhhhhh.. i wanna concluden that ferny gt very low xiao4 dian3.. LOLS.. =X

2009-09-16T06:18:00.000-07:00

AHHH!!!!! i gt multiple ulcers on my lips! like 5! wth!!! plus sorethroat, oh man~~~ =(((((((((( cha cha on fri, hope it will be fun.. 18/09's birthday in TWO DAY's time!! hoho, i heard we r going to bottle tree village?
yay! fun fun fun!!! sian, but promos in less than 20 days.. OH NO~~ nt prepared!

2009-09-13T06:44:00.000-07:00

你很虚伪leh，看了就讨厌。

Cant stand people who do the _______________ of _______________.. and 两头蛇sucks the most!! EEEEEEEE....... kindly go and reflect..

Oh no~ promos in 21 days time.. im certainly NOT prepared at all man~ shitttttttttt....... i always hv the luck to get what i want in academics(eg. sec sch, triple sci class, and ajc), will i sail thru promos smoothly again this time? I REALLY HOPE SO! shall start mugging.. pls remind me to.... esp when im online using the pc.. ARGH!!

2009-09-12T06:44:00.000-07:00

10 ways to know that you love someone:

1) you talk to him/her later at night n still think of him/her when u go to bed

2) u walk really slow when you r with him/her

3) u dun feel ok when he/she is far away

4)u smile when u hear him/her voice

6)he/she is everything to what u think

7)u smile everytime u look at him/her

8)there is one person in ur mind while u r reading this

9)u hv been so busy thinking of that person that u didnt realise 5 is missing

10)u r checking if thats true n u r silently laughing to urself

send this msg to at least 10 friends. hoho!

2009-09-11T23:44:00.000-07:00

Being a pessimist, I don't think i caused that.. I doubt I gt such power huh.. But still, i think its sickening.. I know you guys dont know what i meant.. HAHAHAHAHA... DONT TELL YOU.. XP

2009-09-11T06:49:00.000-07:00

Its quite irritating sometimes to have notes instead of textbook.. because so many things r not in OR u will have to infer from the example to get the concept.. its no longer as clear-cut as before, when we have textbooks to refer to.. like what daniel says, google will become our best friend.. which i kinda agree with him nw.. wth! i can find bio ans from google.. EEEEEEEE........ but well, it makes us become independent learners? oh well, i rather have my textbooks back.. =(

2009-09-10T21:39:00.000-07:00

I finally bot the floaty floaty kind of dress!! CHEERS~!

2009-09-10T19:08:00.000-07:00

i woke up at 8 plus today!! super early for me cos im a slpy head. XD And the reason is because na na's msg scare me.. hahas.. lousy ivle.. =X anw, na na told me chem quiz ended ytd.. but in the end i realised the quiz closed between 12 to 1 or sth like tat.. its open again! cheers~ i think i will take a nap again later..

DISLIKE ppl who ignore/take super duper whooper long to reply my msg >: (

2009-09-09T06:10:00.000-07:00

I love secondhand serenade songs.. cos they make sense.. i love celine dion, cos she makes sense too.. thats all.. bye bye.. =)

2009-09-07T06:55:00.000-07:00

Sy thinks guy who can sing well is charming.. =D hehehe, hi five sermin! Xp

2009-09-07T04:10:00.000-07:00

Went ri ben chun with clique just nw.. thks to DEYI's sms, made me hv craving for sushi.. n then, i phycho my clique to go makan at ri ben chun with me.. hehehe.. well, as we are all kinda broke, didnt eat the buffet.. =( haiya, being student is the bad la.. i would be richer IF i dun hv to pay classfund/club fund/stationery/notes and the list goes on......... nvm, after promos we shall eat the buffet! yay~! AND DEYI, YOU ARE DAMN MEAN, TEMPT ME WITH UR FOOD~ ROARRRRRRRR!!!!!!! >: (

Oh, i miss that fried sushi again~

2009-09-05T04:32:00.000-07:00

Yoohoo, im back! for those who are interested to know the 'origin?' of the song below, here is the link for the movie-- http://www.tudou.com/programs/view/XHDGvi2BVOQ/

Super sad luh.. =C rmb to prepare tissue b4 u watch it.. hahahas..=p

2009-09-03T06:42:00.000-07:00

Dislike ppl who do the opposite of what they say! LAMESHIT!!! >; (

2009-09-01T05:34:00.000-07:00

酒干倘卖无(他没人关心)
Anyone has empty wine bottles to sell (He has no one cares of him)

酒干倘卖无(他没有明天)
Anyone has empty wine bottles to sell (He has no tomorrow)

酒干倘卖无(他只有寂寞)
Anyone has empty wine bottles to sell (He only has the loneliness)

多么熟悉的声音陪我多少年风和雨
So much of a familiar voice, accompanied me through out many struggling years of rains and storms

从来不需要想起永远也不会忘记
Did not have to think of it once, never once forget it as well

没有天那有地没有地那有家
Where would earth be without heaven; where would home be without earth

没有家那有你没有你那有我
Where would you be without a home; where would I be without you

假如你不曾养育我给我温暖的生活
If you did not raise me, given me the comforting life

假如你不曾保护我我的命运将会是什��
If you did not protect, what would be the destiny of my life

是你抚养我长大对我说第一句话
It were you who brought me up; talked to me the very first phrase

是你给我一个家让我与你共同拥有它
It were you who gave me a home; allowed me to have it with you

虽然你不能开口说一句话
Even though you could not say a word

却更能明白人世间的黑白与真假
But more understanding of life between black and white, real or fake

虽然你不会表达你的真情
Although you do not know how to express your real feelings

却付出了热忱的生命
But giving out the warmest compassion in life

远处传来你多么熟悉的声音
From far away ego of your very familiar voice

让我想起你多么慈祥的心灵
Making me thought of the kindness of your spirit

什么时候你才回到我身旁让我再和你�� 起唱
When will you come back to my side; let me sing with you together again

酒干倘卖无酒干倘卖无酒干倘卖无酒�� 倘卖无
Anyone has empty wine bottles to sell~~ Anyone has empty wine bottles to sell ~~

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ntop0HStvjw

A very touching song..........

2009-08-31T05:50:00.000-07:00

Caught the movie 'UP' with emi, jas and kt just now.. A nice show indeed.. touching+cute+sweet~ ahhh, i was wondering whether i will have a husband who will be like the old man in the movie.. oh well~
Anw, i cut my own fringe just nw cos i v lazy to go salon.. LOLS.. quite satisfied.. HAHAs..at least it wont irriate my face.. hoho.. had a enjoyable day today!Since im on the topic on hair, i want to say that I DIDNT DYE MY HAIR, ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRR............. i love my hair colour.. dislike it when ppl doubt i nvr dye my hair.. its irritating la......
someone should invent a got-dye-hair-or-not tester.. tsk!!

2009-08-30T08:55:00.000-07:00

用起伏的背影擋住哭泣的心
yong qi fu de bei ying dang zhu ku qi de xin
有些故事不必說給每個人聽
you xie gu shi bu bi shuo gei mei ge ren ting
許多眼睛看的太淺太近
xu duo yan jing kan de tai qian tai jin
錯過我沒被看見那個自己
cuo guo wo mei bei kan jian na ge zi ji

2009-08-30T03:22:00.000-07:00

我并不要求什么，只希望不会再受到伤害。请你做每件事前想想我的感受。

2009-08-29T22:14:00.000-07:00

BRINGING BABY+TODDLER+PRI SCH PHOTOS ON MON! HEH, COME FIND ME IF U WANTO C.. =P EXCITED~! CAN C MY FRENS' BABY PHOTOS TOO.. ^^

2009-08-29T08:38:00.000-07:00

PISSED WITH MYSELF! SY, learn to control yourself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >; (

2009-08-29T08:26:00.000-07:00

My life is in a mess nw.. will greatly appreciate if you(nt referring to anyone in particular) dont mess it further.. i will be very grateful.. For those whom i showed attitude to, am very sry.. hope u guys understand..
To my pw grp, thk u so much for being so understanding.. very sry for always being late.. <3 u girls..

2009-08-29T08:10:00.000-07:00

ROAR! i nidda learn to control my emotions.. go go sy! WTHHHHHHHHHHHHH........ %$&@&^*&^(^&$!#&^%*^#$^%#$%T^*^%@$#$^^^%#$%^%*^&%&%*@&%^*^%*%*%*^#$*#

emo............................................................

2009-08-29T06:47:00.000-07:00

BOF BOF BOF! omg, its like a fairytale.. me <3 zhihou.. =P HANDSOME+GENTLEMAN+CARING+NICE+RICH+WHATEVER POSITIVE THINGS YOU CAN THINK OF.. I want a bf/husband like him! lols! In my dream luh huh, now still gt GOOD GUYS MEH? even if they exist, they also wont like me one luh.. =(

2009-08-28T08:51:00.000-07:00

wow! im blogging almost daily.. just came home from cca.. super tired~ argh! im losing interest in this cca of mine.. it causes me to have backaches, heh, old granny here.. >< i no longer feel the thrill and motivation to shoot.. I know, with this kind of attitude, i wont make it far. But! cant control right? like means like, dont like means dont like.. oh well~ hope i can find my passion back soon! I used to look foward to every training but nw i dread training man.. SO SIAN... had econs n chem test today.. econs=confirm fail cos i didnt even study for it.. sigh... chem was okay but made a silly careless mistake.. lols! okays, thats all for today.. i lead a VERY B-O-R-I-N-G life.. how sad..

Your actions irk me..

2009-08-27T06:48:00.000-07:00

TWO TESTS TMR-chem n econs! And im still procrastinating. Time check, now its 9.48pm. Feels early, i think im used to sleeping late.. hahas.. then the next day i will be grumpy and complain how tired i am.. =X aww man~ cant go out with jas dear n ama laopo tmr cos of CCA! >:( Ahhh!!! I want a new blogskin, with picture that kind, any kind soul want to help me create(since i dunno how to)? >< okays, shall go and study now, i need more time! poof.....

2009-08-26T07:35:00.000-07:00

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

Beautiful song~ <3

2009-08-24T08:18:00.001-07:00

[a=1][c=0]The [c=4][b]DOOM[/b][/c] #3[/c] [c=48][Doom[/c=6][c=6]orkie][/c=38][/a] The strongest brothers!! says (11:16 PM):
love is patient
love is kind
love always protects,love always trusts
love always hope,and love always perseveres

2009-08-24T03:36:00.000-07:00

First post for public blog! Been quite EMO recently.. I believe I will be fine soon! Dont worry people! Anw, really glad to have friends around me who are always there for me. Shall let my first post be a thankgiving post yea! Dont be too sad if your name doesnt appear here, maybe i accidcentally missed out.. =p

In no order of merit, I would want to thank:

CCHY:
jaslin, amanda, kaiting, weitien, clarrie, emily, members of vegetable gang(deyi, jian wei, guai chiap, junhao? sry, stm relapse, i cant rmb who is in the gang ><), shixuan, timothy, sze gee, derek, william, chijie.

AJC:
sheena, ferny, ser min, weisiang, daniel, B-R-Y-A-N!!!!!!
OUTSIDE:
jayson(not sure where he disappear to alr though ><),james(artist)^^

Okay, now I shall highlight some incidents that made me feel fortunate to have friends like you all:
-2009 birthday celebration where emi n ama gt drenched during the preparation of the treasure hunt.. love you girls!
-belated birthday present from derek n kaiting, thks for the PLEASANT SURPRISE, SUPER TOUCHED! =D
-during O lvl period, tim's effort to teach me academic stuff
-would like to thk vege gang n cchy clique(both upper n lower sec) for all the fun
-my current clique for always being there for me during my emo period(& ferny waiting for me to go sch tgt)
-james for all the drawings and encouragement =p
-deyi for being the hero coming to sy's rescue whenever im sad =) appreciate your effort to cheer me up
-weisiang and ferny for your 'support' and 'catch me when i fall' ^^
-jayson for all the help in my hw, my blog template, msn chat, etc etc.. eh, come back!! where r u ? =(
-ty big bird aka da niao for helping me edit my PW stuff, n crapping with me when im bored =p
-the mantou is jealous cos his name is nt here.. hahas.. dont luh, I rmb you this coconut la.. =X dont kill me.. =p thks for teaching me! 734371 rocks! ^^

Alright, thats for for today.. bye people!